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Saturday, November 19, 2005

today's a great day! history in the morning and im happy that chapter 5 came out for source base and china came out for structured! (:

many things to say, but actually im quite lazy to list them down. ever had the feeling where you have many things u wanna do before the Os and suddenly after the Os you realise you dont really know what to do? hahaha. love today to bits and pieces. everyday is gonna be as good as this.

its fast how 4 years of my seconday sch education is over..it feels just like ytd where i asked huizhi to be my friend cause i was the only pri sch student in hai sing. all the funny, weird, shite, crazy times in my secondary sch..im happy to say tt i like my sch a lot in fact. as i proceed on to the next step of my journey, i know tt Jesus will always be with me and im actually very excited! haha. oh wells, did i mention tt i love todayy? yeah i probably did.

anyways, the only person who can make me feel this way and plan everything out nicely for me, better than what i've expected would be Jesus. yeah so for everything he has done, thank u abba. i really love u a lot cause you first loved. (:

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

i DO NOT want to walk home feeling like this EVER again.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

okay, starting from today, i am going to do my best for a maths and history.i do my best and god will do the rest.

of course, what i can do is very little.its god who can make me do well for my o levels, by his grace. when im faced with an impossible situation, it is him who can do the impossible. my weakness is made perfect in him.

Genesis 12:2
I will make you a great nation;
I will bless you
And make your name great;
And you shall be a blessing.

amen.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

today's service was really good, and i mean it from the bottom of my heart! God answered my prayers so accurately! like wow, pastor lian was saying something like do you actually feel very scared inside of you though you may act as though your okay on the outside..many thoughts ran through my mind yesterday and today actually. bad thoughts..well she said god wants to reassure you that he loves you..and i felt god's presence so strongly. today's message talked about abraham and lot. like what the difference between them. the difference is lot has the veil on him, the old convanent, the law, where everything is i must do, i must, i must..abraham is different in he believe in God.

the one thing which actually touched my heart a lot was when pastor lian asked, 'do you really believe that god loves you?' yeah it was great.actually im still feeling upset and disappointed, cause i keep getting disappointed and its not a very good feeling. i know i should stop thinking about it cause i'll nvr be able to achieve that one thing which i want very much. it feels as if this is an impossible thing to happen. of course you'll say, believe in Jesus la! yeah i know, but when it disappoints you so much to a point where you dont even dare to expect ANYTHING from that person, you'll know how i feel. it hurts. but now, im letting it go. i wont ask anymore thing from him.. wait, kaiyan just talked to me and i feel so much better now!

right place at the right time. amen father for tt. thank u for kaiyan..haha now, i feel much happier so i dont wanna blog about unhappy things anymore. (:


sometimes i really wonder....

what the fuck is people's real intention.

in font of you, they encourage you to do well for the Os, saying you'll definitely do well and stuff,

but at the back they hope you fail and do badly so that they will fucking outshine you.

i dont know how to differentiate anymore. human beings are retards. sometimes when you care for that someone so much and all you want is for him to appreciate the care and concern that you shower on him, all he does is to keep quiet. and then you think why on earth do you still bother about him, yet your heart tells you that you cant leave him alone just like that. he might just need you though he doesnt say it out cause deep down, he actually care about you. just that he doesnt show it out. and you wish he would just fucking open up and tell you how he really feels.

it funny how we change from the small, innocent kids to the devious adults. the smiling faces, the friendly greetings are just a facade. and its sad to see that we can actually do it so well.

i'm not in a very good mood now.

Friday, November 11, 2005

i wrote a long entry actually, but i've decided not to post it.

anyways,

-four papers left.
-service tmr.
-mao will come out in jesus name. amen.


god's grace and love to see me through the Os. amen.

need to replenish loss of sleep now.


4 more papers to go!! (: (:

this week was really really busy! my god, like SS, emaths 1, emaths 2, chem, phys, bio paper 1&2 and english paper 1&2. thats 9 papers in 5 days! haha and im so glad i pulled through it! e maths paper 2 today was quite okay but i made some really careless mistakes! like oh my god! ha but its okay cause i know that im still gonna get an A1 in Jesus name! amen! so far, all the papers were okay..except i think i screwed up physics a little. my brain still cant convince me that bio essay is 1 point 1 mark. it keeps telling me 1 point is half mark so im worried that i didnt write enough! brain, its ONE POINT ONE MARK LA.

so after e maths paper 2 today, we went macs to have lunch. then we headed to tm for haagen dazs. ohhh yeahhh. chocolate fondue!! (: just slacked a little after that. talked a lot a lot and took some photos! ha, talk about self obsession. well, we needed a break so we feel rejuvenated now! we talked about what we're gonna do after the Os! so many things to do! heh..then we headed home.

i like walking home alone cause it allows me to talk to god. haha and i just love the time spent with him. through this O levels, he has helped me a lot and this journey is definitely a supernatural one. DEFINITELY. so yeah, mrs khan called and i met her while walking home halfway! showed her the english paper and we sorta went thru it together. :D chose the correct choice out of the three choices and my compo was okay. did the one on the factors which will affect my career. the first five people in front of me didnt do tt topic, BUT konrad whose just sitting behind me did tt qns la! omg and we wrote about the same things..nvm favor favor when the maker is marking my papers! ENGLISH WILL BE GOOD IN JESUS NAME. AMEN.

haha so yeah going for service tmr! this week is sorta tedious and tiring. i mean i slept at 2am plus like almost everyday except for the days when i have maths. for now, its time to mug for A MATHS and HISTORY. A MATHS, MY FAV SUBJECT. thanks a lot!! the subject which im the STRONGEST AT!! yeah, actually i cant do a maths for nuts. hurhur. but ill try my BEST this time. and history, father lord, mao ZEDONG will come out in jesus name. AMEN. AMEN. k so im probably gonna get some sleep first and study later!

tuesday - a maths P1
thurs - a maths P2
fri - history

thank u abba for giving me more time to study for the subject which im not very good at and for the subject which needs memorizing work. thank u lord tt when i study, its not by myself but by your grace. thank u abba that its supernatural. the holy spirit guide me and that whatever i study will come out in ur name! and i can expect it cause im ur beloved daughter. because im ur beloved daughter, all A1s are mine and the rest of the papers will be easy. amen. and thank u for the friends whom u have sent to constantly remind me to keep on going even when i feel like giving upat times. thank u for each and everyone of them, esp ppl like serene, gracia, huizhi, joanne, reuben, michael, stanley, mum, dad and all the teachers. thank u father.

and oh, being a teacher is never easy. )': god bless her.

listening to endless love by jackie chan and the korean actress now. its a really nice song. im hooked unto it after hearing it ample times in mrs khan's car. haha god bless all! all the best and JEsus is always here for u and ME of course! (:

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

in the midst of the storm,
thru the wind and the rain,
you'll still be faithful
you'll still be faithful...

need to destress a bit! haha so here i am, in the midst of O levels. yeah right its the Os. so far, 3 papers down alr. after tmr, it'll be 6 papers down. e maths paper 1 was okay so far so im supposing that e maths paper 2 will be tough or the marks to get an A1 for e maths would be about 85 and above. well, everything will go well in jesus name! amen! and SS, it was quite okay too, but i think i made some wrong inferences for source base. so that was my first day of O levels.

today there's chem. well, ytd night, i was like so stressed up over with i-dont-know-what. i panicked at like about 1am plus! got so worried cause i suddenly forgot what titration and my brain felt like it was blocked! thought i had a mental block or smth. so yeah i called up serene and she taught me chem, those that i dont understand. thankfully, shes here to remind me that no matter what, jesus loves me so i dont have to be afraid. it turned out that chem was okay today! hehe.thank god for tt. (: isnt it good how jesus send us friends who will be there for us and to remind us of his love for us constantly? and thanks michael for staying up till 2am plus last night to keep me company! haha. appreciate it lots! (:

after chem, mrs khan fetched me to her house and had english tuition. yeah. crap. did three really tough compre and gosh, my brain felt like it cannot think anymore after doing the three compres! after tt, she sent me home and i had physics tuition. heavenly daddy, grant me the knowledge, ur undivine favor and ur peace to do english and physics tmr. you know that i want to do well and i know that u want me to do well more than myself. so abba, i commit the papers for tmr and for the rest of the Os into ur hands and guide me in whatever tt im studying. not by myself, but in you. i will do well by the grace of god. amen.

Psalms 84:11
"For the Lord God is a sun and shield; The Lord will give grace and glory; No good thing will he withhold from those who are His righteous ones."

and clarice says amen to that.

Saturday, November 05, 2005

i'm feeling hungry now. like yeah and it all started out with shimin saying she's gonna cook spaghetti! she cooked two persons servings and she cant finish them all.obviously one plate of spaghetti is for me, but she refused to deliever it over to my house. hur..okay so im online now, feeling hungry. haha and i passed the hunger over to reuben! haha cousin's really nice and we aint called cousins for nothing. these few days, hes like the one whom i talked to till 4.30am++ (:

Os like in two days! ha! yeah and within two weeks, all will be over. somehow, i still have this fear in me, like what if i screw this up? and i've been feeling rather melancholy over it but then daddy lord is so good cause he sent some people to talk to me and stuff, thereby cheering me up a whole load. perfect love cast out ALL fears. so true. well, did a bit of SS today and mostly bio. ah, everything shall be good in jesus name! and before you know it, Os will be over and it'll be time to let our hair down and parttyy!

meanwhile, lets all just get back to studying XD god bless!

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

bubbly mint crisp flavoured chocolate on a crunchy chocolate biscuit covered in milk chocolate. (:

4 more days to o levels.
god bless everyone whose taking the Os too!
especially to my close close friends and ME.

SLEEP.

venice WILL come out in Jesus name. amen.

(:




I've been sleeping at the most unearthly time these few days.

@_@

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

No matter how bad your heart was broken, the world wont stop for your grief.

so move on,
and paint the world that you want.
follow your heart, follow your dreams.