its a nice lovely sunday morning and ive decided to blog at this very moment. yesterday was great fun! went to east coast park for combine cg and we played games and stuff. enjoyed myself. went for dinner after that and i was bloated. talk abt being fat. hah.

and just now, charissa sent me a message which really made me feel very touched. and as i read through the messages of what some people sent me, i felt so loved. yes and to think that i thought no one loves me and im just a lonely kid.

more often than not, we used to think that the world is against us, and everything feels so wrong. however, i beg to differ. if only we would notice the small little things around us which we usually dont, then we might not think that everythings so screwed up anymore.

just like ytd, i thought everything was going wrong because i felt that i have too many faults and i wasnt being able to be a good friend to them and after all, i could see that they were displeased too and it haunted me for quite a while, not enabling me to enjoy the things which God has planned for me. however, i changed my mindset. i told myself that i wasnt born to please every single one on this Earth and everyone has their own faults. thats when i began to throw my worries that i have away and just concentrate on the games + having fun. in the end, i had great fun and im really glad i didnt choose to make a fuss out of everything.

and i think i finally found my real motivation to study. its not in being the smartest person on Earth. what good would that have done anway? its in finding pleasure in everything that you do and enjoying the subjects. and like i said, its the small little things that people do that keeps me going on when i feel like breaking down. i know that they are there are for me and they being my reason. and of course, Jesus. i could never have imagined what life would be like without him. a fcuked up life. and im thankful that he died on the cross for me and my sins are being paid for. he loves me the most. and i love him the most too. enough said.